Chain of Gratitude

(Please note:  Somehow the quote last week about setbacks did not actually come through when published.  It was: “Giving up on a goal is like slashing your other three tires because you got a flat.”

And the blog previous to that included a quote attributed to Albert Camus.  I discovered the only sentence that he actually wrote was: “In the depth of winter I finally learned that there lay within me an invincible summer.”  Whie the rest was quite lovely, some anonymous person elaborated. My apologies for both lapses in my postings.)

Two Cups of Tea at Hope’s Café

A dear friend sent me a piece from the New York Times by Melissa Kirsch describing Kirsch’s gratitude practice.  Looking to find a fresh approach to the acknowledgement of gratitude, she developed what she calls a “chain of gratitude.”  In this gratitude practice, I might give thanks for the fresh cup of coffee I am holding and think of all that went into the making of that coffee, the process that got it to the grocery store, the fact that I had the money to purchase it, the opportunities I’ve had to share a cup with my spouse, with friends.  The cup itself reminds me that it was the gift from a friend. I think of all the ways she has been a kind companion through life’s journey. 

Tracing a gratitude back to its origin and then forward, I could give thanks for the gift of writing, I could recall how I was encouraged from a young age.  I began to show an interest in writing in the fourth grade when some poetry was introduced to us in school.  My parents affirmed my early efforts.  My father, a printer on the newspaper, brought home end rolls of printer paper on which I began to write stories.  My sixth grade teacher would allow me to read my stories to the class.  She encouraged the class when we expressed a desire to start a school newspaper and helped us through that process.  She became a mentor throughout my life. 

In high school I became editor of the school newspaper and throughout college I worked for public relations departments and school newspapers.  Along the way I had honorable mention in a story contest and a poem published. At a church where I was a member I offered to write a column for the newsletter.  One friend there suggested I should write a book of devotionals.  I lived with that thought for years and eventually wrote one.  But I knew nothing about publishing.  As I was sitting next to a friend at a dinner for chaplains, I suddenly recalled she wrote for a magazine.  I asked her if she might have any suggestions for where I might send my book for consideration.  Yes, she did! The group she wrote for was just starting to publish books.  I went home, sent my proposal to them and heard back the next day! 

Along the way I have had writer friends who have encouraged me.  This chain of gratitude seems endless and includes the very people who are reading this.  I often feel I should give this blog up because I don’t feel it lives up to my standard for my best effort.  You deserve better from me, more  of my time devoted to writing it well.  But when I “make noises” like I might quit, someone will offer some response that keeps me going.  Thank you so much for the time you take to read my posts!  I am grateful for you!

The invitation is open to share two cups of tea anytime at Hope’s Café or anywhere you share companionship and conversation.

May we bearers of hope, the “wait staff” at Hope’s Café, for each other and all those we encounter.  Shalom, Kate

Discombobulation


“Discombobulate, meaning “to confuse, frustrate,” sounds like something straight out of a cartoon. It was first recorded in the form discomboberate in the early 1800s, and apparently originated as a humorous imitation of hifalutin-sounding Latin words.”—vocabulary.com

In the midst of getting belongings settled in our new apartment and also getting my office organized and beginning my duties, I lost (misplaced?) the set of church keys I had just been given the previous week.  The same morning I discovered the keys missing, when I got in the car headed to an appointment with a new chiropractor, a message read “Braking system problem!  See a dealer immediately!”  I totally lost my emotional center!  I was “discombobulated!” At the chiropractor appointment, my blood pressure, which normally is fine, had shot up.  I couldn’t seem to focus to fill out the forms.  In one place where I was to sign and date, I signed and started to put my post office box number!  I dated things incorrectly.  You get the picture.

I stayed agitated overnight.  Finally, in an effort to get hold of myself, I thought about what was really going on.  Keys can be replaced.  I realized I was really upset about feeling I had embarrassed myself. I considered that this reflected poorly on me.  What kind of confidence was I inspiring in my congregation when I immediately lost the keys?

So I went to the office where I forced myself to sit and focus on a daily reading that I do.  Then I randomly opened a book I have had for a long time but never read.  The chapter I opened to was based on a gospel story where Jesus encountered the man “Legion” (meaning many), who in current terms we would describe as mentally ill.  His behavior was so disruptive that the villagers had tried to restrain him with chains from which he repeatedly broke free.  One point the author made was about how fragmented we sometimes become.  One of the discussion questions was: “What would your life be like if you were in your right mind?” 

When I am “in my right mind,” I am either aware of all my blessings or I can fairly easily call to mind all that for which I am grateful.  And there is so much! Just at the moment I am so very much relieved that our “stateside” son-in-law (not the “overseas” son-in-law) came through his heart surgery this week with flying colors! (Of course, this also was a part of my “discombobulation.”) So my heart is full and I give thanks.

 May we be bearers of hope, the “wait staff” of Hope’s Café for each other and all those we encounter.  Shalom, Kate

Hope’s Café Bonus:  From Michael J. Fox, who has been dealing with Parkinson’s disease for 30 years:  “Optimism is really rooted in gratitude.  Optimism is sustainable when you keep coming back to gratitude, and what follows from that is acceptance.”

Finding Hope Through Gratitude

I believe in the message of hope. I believe in hope in the midst of despair. I believe when we are despairing, God despairs with us. And that underpins hope, because if God suffers with us, there is meaning in that hopeless experience.

A compassionate God offers us a steady supply of hope, but we do not always avail ourselves of it. Our means to do that is through gratitude. Gratitude is what brings hope into the present moment. Hope may seem a distant promised land but gratitude gives us awareness of the manna we are eating in the wilderness at this very moment.” 

These words were the opening of a paper I wrote for a ministry class some years ago but the words ring as true to me today.  As we wander in the wilderness of Covid 19, there are many for whom gratitude may seem a stretch.  Maybe you have lost a loved one and the virus has prevented having the closure of a celebration of life surrounded by friends and family. Maybe your job has been shut down and you have children to feed. Perhaps you are experiencing deep depression or panic attacks fueled by our present circumstances.  How do you find gratitude within yourself in this present moment?

“In this present moment” is the key.  In this present moment, ground yourself.  Take some slow, deep breaths.  Ask yourself: where are my feet? That may seem silly.  Do it anyway.  Recognize your feet as connected to solid ground (or imagine them connected if something prevents your putting them flat on the floor). 

Ask yourself:  where is my head? What thoughts am I feeding?  Name at least one thing for which you are grateful.  Continue searching if something doesn’t come immediately.  You might look to the book of Psalms or some other reading that you find uplifting.  I have sometimes turned to Psalm 42: “Why art thou cast down, O my soul? And why art thou disquieted within me?  Hope thou in God, for I shall yet again praise him for the help of his countenance.” If all else fails, think of someone you can do something for and be grateful for that motivation. 

May we be bearers of hope, the “wait staff” of Hope’s Café for each other and all those we encounter.

            Shalom, Kate

P.S. Bonus healthy snack from Hope’s Cafe:  slice an apple and sprinkle cinnamon on it. Dip it in yogurt. 😊